I am Sorry

Sebagai seorang yg suka becakap, menulis bukanlah kemahiran aku...jauh sekali menjadi wadah meluah rasa. Tapi ntah nape pagi ni tangan rasa lancar je nk menaip. Though xkan ada org yg baca sebab aku sendiri pun bosan nk bukak blog ni...tp it helps hopefully.

Since June, kerja jadi semakin mencabar. Julai terutamanya bila aku mula full buat jawatan baru sambil cover jawatan lama. I am not seeking a sympathy here but just a little understanding on how pressured i am day in day out...should i cry loud and tell the whole world tht i am BLUR! nobody cares i suppose :)

so y should i bother to share the sad story?? i just pretended like it all never happened n smileeeeee ears to ears..

In my 1st month, 3 big cases had occurred..all are new cases with no clear reference. I skip to talk about the 1st two bcoz tht was work in progress n hoping tht it will settle soon.

Death. Kematian. Selama ni pun aku x pernah anggap ianya suatu yg ringan dan boleh diambil ringan. Antara tuntutan kifayah dan tugas...aku sendiri x pasti atas kapasiti apa aku telah memilih untuk menyempurnakan suatu penyemadian.

Wht option do i have bilamana almost semua org are looking at me and 100% believe tht i know and certainly can handle the situation.

I must admit, unlike others, i am quite fragile...i am not use with the situation where i dun get proper sleep, i'd to skip my meals and my bath....i feel tired beyond word and wht i need is enough rest. I am sorry if my rest takes longer time than any normal person would do...when i am resting, i mean total resting...i may incidentally ignoring people around me, people who cares for me or might not...but just give me ample time to recover as i am mentally and physically exhausted.

I am me...i am learning to perform my new post. My boss said to me, u need to learn and learn fast. I am not doing this for me alone but for my future that i wish to share with someone who i care n love the most.....i've no regret and optimist tht i need no regret, i chart my own destiny~